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Priscilla Ahn- Home.
Home is where… return addresses loop back.
1) Find containers to hold flowers that are not vases necessarily.
2) Pick flowers.
3) Arrange, gawk, beam.
It was a year ago yesterday that we filed into your glass
room and squeezed your hand one last time and said good bye, we love you, we’re sorry. I don’t know if you heard us. I don’t know if you’d heard us all that week after you’d been sedated and intubated— not when my mama sang to you (every song she could remember and even the ones she couldn’t), not when we held your hand through sterile gloves (o the germs, did we give you the germs that your immune system couldn’t handle after all those rounds of chemo and your marrow transplant?), or whispered the best parts of the lives we were so lucky to share with you. Maybe you did. Maybe as your processes slowed, and the fight in you dwindled to a quiet close (as quiet as the machine putting the air in your lungs/ taking it back out) your eyes-closed hours were softened by melodies and squeezed hands and all of us saying: we love you so much but we don’t want you to be in pain anymore. We love you so much and we don’t want you to be pain anymore. We love you so much we can’t stand for you to be in pain. We love you so much. We love you so much.
[…] You deplore the demonstrations that are presently taking place in Birmingham. But I am sorry that your statement did not express a similar concern for the conditions that brought the demonstrations into being. I am sure that each of you would want to go beyond the superficial social analyst who looks merely at effects and does not grapple with underlying causes.
-Martin Luther King, Jr. in a response letter
to eight white religious leaders of the South’s public statement of concern/caution over demonstrations against segregation in 1963
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Yesterday morning: daughter, dad, striding towards a bus stop. Daughter with a Hello Kitty backpack 2x her size and dad with his cell phone out, playing a tune. Both striding to the beat, one hand reaching straight up to grasp the other.
This morning: two women lugging groceries in blue bags, and a 24-pack of toilet paper, giggling as they go.
This afternoon: siblings on porch step, one hollering, “Up or down? Do you go up or down to get from 89 to 90?” Her brother running from one end of the porch to the next, thinking hard. “Down.”
Low - Cracker
it never ends
Notes, take notes.
1) From This American Life: Americans in Paris.
I was going to the movies with a friend of mine from Yale who is black also. And there was a long line. And we were like, let’s jump the line. These white people, they’re going to be scared of us. We’ll just go and jump the line. We’ll get to the front of the line. So, of course, you know, we walked up to the front of the line, like, yeah, you want to try me? I’m black. That usually works in New York.
These people were ready to rip our hair out. And they were white. I couldn’t believe it. And they were like, in French, what are you doing? The line starts back there. You can’t just walk to the front of the line. They were, like, ready to kick our butts. I was shocked. I’m like, these are white people, and they’re not scared of us?
That’s when I realized I wasn’t in Kansas anymore. And I liked it. I mean, of course, it was kind of humiliating, because you know, we’re supposed to be the intimidating, scary ones. And then all these French bitches in high heels were threatening us. And they were in our faces. And it made me realize that the whole black-white game just doesn’t work outside of the United States.
Because white people aren’t afraid of you here. And at the same time, they don’t hate you, because that sort of goes together. So I’ll take it. I’ll wait on line. Now I don’t dare jump lines. So that opened my eyes.
2) Killer Mike on CNN.
3) Lauryn Hill’s dedication to Michael Brown.
4) “Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.”